Life
Friday, June 05, 2009
hey I am sorry for not updating for SO goddamn long!
I write this post with plenty of guilty, out of my obligation towards all those who bother to read my blog despite my sporadic updates. I am sorry for disappointing, and I am now doing my best to give you a glimpse into one of the most hectic times of my life.
this is a long awaited first post in over two months, and I kinda hate to restart blogging on a low note, but in these times, it is totally wrong if I 自欺欺人 and say everything will work themselves out. I must get down there and get the shit done for my own sake.
in fact, even my internet connection is acting up right now as I try to post, as if I dont have enough problems on hand.
yes, its once again near the end of term, and that only means all kinds of projects to hand up and common tests.
I just finished my FMGT video like three days ago, took a short rest and only worked on my EBA database and powerpoint today. big mistake to procrastinate. this literally left me with one day to settle my CMA common test revision.
I hate myself for doing that. but at the same time, I hate the school for moving e-Learning to Week 6. it just doesnt bloody make sense. when it was Week 7 last year, I could use it as a common test study week. now I have to rush projects right to the bloody eve of a common test.
I was never THIS unprepared for a major (20% or more) test before and I am not shy to admit I am really nervous. everyone has got some stuff started and here I am tying loose ends for yet another irritating project.
but it is only when I am done with a project will I have the mood to study properly. I never really multitasked well at things like this...
as common tests comes to a close and my (already packed) 2 weeks break come, I swear I will make some time and update with some pictures. I have some accumulated and I should be able to talk about maybe two or so events. this is only because I know people have been reading and I do not wish to disappoint anyone anymore.
in fact this do-not-wish-to-disappoint is not just in blogging, but in school or at any activities I am part of as well. what people think of me matters to me and I will do my best to live up to them. and so I will do my best for the tests (and hope for the best considering how I am such an idiot for postponing all my stuff).
I will keep everyone posted on my papers as per tradition. this time round I should be studying more at home. going outside may be less lonely, but less productive. try and force myself this time maybe?
I will be signing off for now. see you next update.
I write this post with plenty of guilty, out of my obligation towards all those who bother to read my blog despite my sporadic updates. I am sorry for disappointing, and I am now doing my best to give you a glimpse into one of the most hectic times of my life.
this is a long awaited first post in over two months, and I kinda hate to restart blogging on a low note, but in these times, it is totally wrong if I 自欺欺人 and say everything will work themselves out. I must get down there and get the shit done for my own sake.
in fact, even my internet connection is acting up right now as I try to post, as if I dont have enough problems on hand.
yes, its once again near the end of term, and that only means all kinds of projects to hand up and common tests.
I just finished my FMGT video like three days ago, took a short rest and only worked on my EBA database and powerpoint today. big mistake to procrastinate. this literally left me with one day to settle my CMA common test revision.
I hate myself for doing that. but at the same time, I hate the school for moving e-Learning to Week 6. it just doesnt bloody make sense. when it was Week 7 last year, I could use it as a common test study week. now I have to rush projects right to the bloody eve of a common test.
I was never THIS unprepared for a major (20% or more) test before and I am not shy to admit I am really nervous. everyone has got some stuff started and here I am tying loose ends for yet another irritating project.
but it is only when I am done with a project will I have the mood to study properly. I never really multitasked well at things like this...
as common tests comes to a close and my (already packed) 2 weeks break come, I swear I will make some time and update with some pictures. I have some accumulated and I should be able to talk about maybe two or so events. this is only because I know people have been reading and I do not wish to disappoint anyone anymore.
in fact this do-not-wish-to-disappoint is not just in blogging, but in school or at any activities I am part of as well. what people think of me matters to me and I will do my best to live up to them. and so I will do my best for the tests (and hope for the best considering how I am such an idiot for postponing all my stuff).
I will keep everyone posted on my papers as per tradition. this time round I should be studying more at home. going outside may be less lonely, but less productive. try and force myself this time maybe?
I will be signing off for now. see you next update.
