Life
Sunday, May 11, 2008
I should be using this difficult-to-come-by time to study for the POA and BLAW quiz coming up tomorrow (!) and tuesday respectively but I am not in the mood for work so here I am.
this is one of the rare sundays I am at home. usually I would be at my maternal grandma's house, but since my father isnt well. I visited neither of them for this weekend. and the last actually.
my father is down with the bouts of fever again. and since he doesnt get enough sleep, he cant really recuperate well. sometimes I feel kinda guilty he is the sole breadwinner. but it is at his insistence that my mother does not find a job and continue attending to the kindergarten children on his bus so...
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before I start on the past two weeks, I actually spent some time reading archives of my blog just now. there was actually this part that went
"as you can see the four paragraphs above can be described as whining but well, I needed somewhere for me to say all these and putting it here means I can refer back here some years later and take a look (and maybe laugh at it for it is less than one-hundredth of what I will have then)."
haha how nostalgic and how true. I really can feel the difference in maturity between the me then and now just from the posts. even if I am still not super mature now.
it gets kinda sad reading all of these, comparing and realising how much things have changed. and how they are not the same anymore. and probably wont be.
I wanted to start on my final sec 4 days, especially the night study. they are really proving to be goddamn memorable. but I will leave this for another time.
with this, the ride down memory lane had finished its loop for the time being and arrives once again at the present.
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this had been an okay week. busy with tutorials and projects (and perhaps life?). at this moment there is the LMS and BMGT project.
the LMS one was freakier because we had to adapt a real life case of anger management into a skit. and skits are normally comical. and this is the irony. to maintain enough content to illustrate the case and our point without sacrificing humour.
to make matters worse, my LMS group are busy people and some have CCA or work during nights. so even MSN discussions is not easy. but still we will be meeting for a few moments on monday and wednesday and make best use of the time.
BMGT is with the people from my class TB31. it is going to be a major project accounting for 30% of the total score and I think the group is not too bad. I am quite comfortable working with them and hope that I will become better friends with these group mates.
since we are on projects, I actually settled my BMGT lecture summary and newspaper article presentation. we only can choose between being the first and last and I thought might as well just get it out of the way once and for all. but I forgot its graded. lol.
there is also the weekly BLAW and MAEC tutorial questions presentations but we decided to work individually and compile during the lesson for these so it doesnt matter now.
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school starts at 9am daily (except fri at 1pm) for me and ends at 1 on Mon and Thu, 5 on Tue and 4 on Wed. but I will wait for mel on mon (that is 8pm), have jap myself on tue (that is 8pm too), spend my thursday slacking at OurSpace@72. on fridays I go out with mel after lessons.
so I literally reach home at 9 plus or 10 DAILY. that leaves most tutorials to the weekends. my early monday and thursdays are used to settle projects and whatever little tutorial I can finish with that time. and now I will have LMS discussions on mon and wed late noons, the only time my group is free.
when CCA comes into the picture, I dont want to think whether it would be a better idea to just sleep in school instead.
from the above, I realise poly life isnt a walk in the park that I am totally expecting. I know JC people are going to come in and tell me they reach home at 12 midnight. I am not comparing to JC, I am comparing against my own expectations of poly life.
but a big part of my busyness (I know its not a word) is because of my relationship la. so people in relationships in JC with CCA commitments are... godly. currently we meet nearly daily to go home together. I think her peer tutoring is going to be a blessing in disguise. I sincerely dont want relationships to be at the expense of studies.
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in poly I have quite a few acquaintances, but I am really thankful that I have a few rather good friends in poly. and of course my dear melissa. poly life would probably been unbearable if not for all of you. though I think I ought to break out of my shell and make a few more good friends in class and CCA (once I get one). 在家靠父母，在外靠朋友. this saying remains really true.
the CCA thing is really bugging me since I am lazy to email the various clubs I want to join after I know I got rejected from BA Envoys. aww. anyway I will remain active in BA Society and NP-CSS Alumni Chapter, and join Poly Stage Productions as well as Japanese Tsubasa Club. wanted to join floorball in place of poly stage and tsubasa but got no response from them. oh well.
the culture here is kinda slack to me la. many tutorials are discussions based so your group gets only a small part. and even then there are 5 of you all working on that one question so you would be really tempted to just heck care. I try my best to do work la, but like this weekend when there are 2 tests coming up I really cant help it.
and there is still jap to think about. I think the jap class is really becoming a chore. I am surrounded by people who can actually watch anime raws, and pressure is quite great to perform. yet I have no time to properly revise. even my weekends are spent on tutorials or preparing for quizzes. so I am seriously considering if I should continue the class next sem. there are plenty of self-help japanese books after all.
oh, POA quiz is tomorrow. BLAW class test on tuesday and DSS next next wednesday. apparently school has went on enough to warrant tests already. but it still feels like I havent really been learning that much. the pace of teaching is really that fast, as one of the lecturers pointed out. week 8 (3 more weeks!) is common test already. gawd.
I think this brings me back to reality. time to study for them. see ya. the lecturers and tutors post will be within the week starting tomorrow. I am sure of that.
this is one of the rare sundays I am at home. usually I would be at my maternal grandma's house, but since my father isnt well. I visited neither of them for this weekend. and the last actually.
my father is down with the bouts of fever again. and since he doesnt get enough sleep, he cant really recuperate well. sometimes I feel kinda guilty he is the sole breadwinner. but it is at his insistence that my mother does not find a job and continue attending to the kindergarten children on his bus so...
==
before I start on the past two weeks, I actually spent some time reading archives of my blog just now. there was actually this part that went
"as you can see the four paragraphs above can be described as whining but well, I needed somewhere for me to say all these and putting it here means I can refer back here some years later and take a look (and maybe laugh at it for it is less than one-hundredth of what I will have then)."
haha how nostalgic and how true. I really can feel the difference in maturity between the me then and now just from the posts. even if I am still not super mature now.
it gets kinda sad reading all of these, comparing and realising how much things have changed. and how they are not the same anymore. and probably wont be.
I wanted to start on my final sec 4 days, especially the night study. they are really proving to be goddamn memorable. but I will leave this for another time.
with this, the ride down memory lane had finished its loop for the time being and arrives once again at the present.
==
this had been an okay week. busy with tutorials and projects (and perhaps life?). at this moment there is the LMS and BMGT project.
the LMS one was freakier because we had to adapt a real life case of anger management into a skit. and skits are normally comical. and this is the irony. to maintain enough content to illustrate the case and our point without sacrificing humour.
to make matters worse, my LMS group are busy people and some have CCA or work during nights. so even MSN discussions is not easy. but still we will be meeting for a few moments on monday and wednesday and make best use of the time.
BMGT is with the people from my class TB31. it is going to be a major project accounting for 30% of the total score and I think the group is not too bad. I am quite comfortable working with them and hope that I will become better friends with these group mates.
since we are on projects, I actually settled my BMGT lecture summary and newspaper article presentation. we only can choose between being the first and last and I thought might as well just get it out of the way once and for all. but I forgot its graded. lol.
there is also the weekly BLAW and MAEC tutorial questions presentations but we decided to work individually and compile during the lesson for these so it doesnt matter now.
==
school starts at 9am daily (except fri at 1pm) for me and ends at 1 on Mon and Thu, 5 on Tue and 4 on Wed. but I will wait for mel on mon (that is 8pm), have jap myself on tue (that is 8pm too), spend my thursday slacking at OurSpace@72. on fridays I go out with mel after lessons.
so I literally reach home at 9 plus or 10 DAILY. that leaves most tutorials to the weekends. my early monday and thursdays are used to settle projects and whatever little tutorial I can finish with that time. and now I will have LMS discussions on mon and wed late noons, the only time my group is free.
when CCA comes into the picture, I dont want to think whether it would be a better idea to just sleep in school instead.
from the above, I realise poly life isnt a walk in the park that I am totally expecting. I know JC people are going to come in and tell me they reach home at 12 midnight. I am not comparing to JC, I am comparing against my own expectations of poly life.
but a big part of my busyness (I know its not a word) is because of my relationship la. so people in relationships in JC with CCA commitments are... godly. currently we meet nearly daily to go home together. I think her peer tutoring is going to be a blessing in disguise. I sincerely dont want relationships to be at the expense of studies.
==
in poly I have quite a few acquaintances, but I am really thankful that I have a few rather good friends in poly. and of course my dear melissa. poly life would probably been unbearable if not for all of you. though I think I ought to break out of my shell and make a few more good friends in class and CCA (once I get one). 在家靠父母，在外靠朋友. this saying remains really true.
the CCA thing is really bugging me since I am lazy to email the various clubs I want to join after I know I got rejected from BA Envoys. aww. anyway I will remain active in BA Society and NP-CSS Alumni Chapter, and join Poly Stage Productions as well as Japanese Tsubasa Club. wanted to join floorball in place of poly stage and tsubasa but got no response from them. oh well.
the culture here is kinda slack to me la. many tutorials are discussions based so your group gets only a small part. and even then there are 5 of you all working on that one question so you would be really tempted to just heck care. I try my best to do work la, but like this weekend when there are 2 tests coming up I really cant help it.
and there is still jap to think about. I think the jap class is really becoming a chore. I am surrounded by people who can actually watch anime raws, and pressure is quite great to perform. yet I have no time to properly revise. even my weekends are spent on tutorials or preparing for quizzes. so I am seriously considering if I should continue the class next sem. there are plenty of self-help japanese books after all.
oh, POA quiz is tomorrow. BLAW class test on tuesday and DSS next next wednesday. apparently school has went on enough to warrant tests already. but it still feels like I havent really been learning that much. the pace of teaching is really that fast, as one of the lecturers pointed out. week 8 (3 more weeks!) is common test already. gawd.
I think this brings me back to reality. time to study for them. see ya. the lecturers and tutors post will be within the week starting tomorrow. I am sure of that.
