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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
people who know me will realise I am not the emolei sort. but then I want to make emolei-esque post now leh. so I will make a happy and chim emo post! I will write small small! then I will write chimly to throw you people without the adequate patience off reading it! woohoo!
...dont look at me like that leh. my ratio of emo post to happy post is like 1:93475894375983475838 and probably 90348590348590438593 times lesser than blogs owned by individuals of my age group in this country ok. give me a bit of leeway la.
let me bring you a typical emo post by a person of my age group:
WARNING: the below illustration is totally fictional and any resemblence to similar posts is simply because emo posts churned out by people of my age nowadays are the same. lol.
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WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN THAT IT IS TOTALLY MY FAULT AND THAT YOU HAVE NOT BLAME ACTUALLY IT IS ALL BECAUSE OF YOU IDIOT JUS SERIOUSLY STOP GIVING A SHIT ABOUT THE FRIENDS I HAVE THEY ARE MY FRIENDS NOT YOURS AND IT IS UP TO ME TOD ECIDE WHETHER THEY ARE GOOD FIRENDS AND NOT DAMN IT JUST GO AWAY AND STOP INTERFEREING IN MY LIFE LA ARGH
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full of angst and not very coherent. unlike mine which even bothered to include a prologue to entertain you all and avoided caps to the greatest extent possible.
some more I must be like the first person on earth to even think of how I should WRITE AN EMO POST okay. most people just senselessly ramble on and on. whats more, I SPENT TWO HOURS THINKING!
please do not ask any questions nor assume anything about the stuff if you read. it is like basic courtesy. that is about how much I think I should share, so dont press for more.
anyway, I am putting it here because I really just wanted an avenue to pen down my thoughts and this is, after all, my own blog.
it has been a long time since I last felt that something important in my life is missing just because I had not been talking to a particular person for a few days.
signals are thus far a mixed bag on the scale, invoking warfare between the cynic and optimist in me.
the cynic thinks I am just giving myself false hope and just looking too much into a simple thing. he also reminded me I am at risk of becoming an irritant if I kept on disturbing her.
but the optimist refuses to be defeated since he is reminded of a few similar case studies regarding perseverance. he also told me isnt liking someone partly about how every small thing the other party does affects you as well?
now, that is an interesting revealation. I have to admit that every small action that the person makes does have an impact on me. I feel hurt when ignored, but that is clean forgotten when an effort is made, no matter how small, to respond. is this how it is supposed to be like?
I am at risk of sounding like a typical idol drama, but that had been something I had realised for a while.
indeed, I am feeling more pessimistic than optimistic about the situation now, but a part of me simply refuses to give up on this ray of hope.
this is a period of uncertainty. many things are going to change in the next few months. this only adds to the worries.
I think I miss someone.
P.S. perry signed in at the moment when I am done writing about the cynic and the optimist. his display name read "everything will work out". freaky coincidence?
...dont look at me like that leh. my ratio of emo post to happy post is like 1:93475894375983475838 and probably 90348590348590438593 times lesser than blogs owned by individuals of my age group in this country ok. give me a bit of leeway la.
let me bring you a typical emo post by a person of my age group:
WARNING: the below illustration is totally fictional and any resemblence to similar posts is simply because emo posts churned out by people of my age nowadays are the same. lol.
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WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN THAT IT IS TOTALLY MY FAULT AND THAT YOU HAVE NOT BLAME ACTUALLY IT IS ALL BECAUSE OF YOU IDIOT JUS SERIOUSLY STOP GIVING A SHIT ABOUT THE FRIENDS I HAVE THEY ARE MY FRIENDS NOT YOURS AND IT IS UP TO ME TOD ECIDE WHETHER THEY ARE GOOD FIRENDS AND NOT DAMN IT JUST GO AWAY AND STOP INTERFEREING IN MY LIFE LA ARGH
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full of angst and not very coherent. unlike mine which even bothered to include a prologue to entertain you all and avoided caps to the greatest extent possible.
some more I must be like the first person on earth to even think of how I should WRITE AN EMO POST okay. most people just senselessly ramble on and on. whats more, I SPENT TWO HOURS THINKING!
please do not ask any questions nor assume anything about the stuff if you read. it is like basic courtesy. that is about how much I think I should share, so dont press for more.
anyway, I am putting it here because I really just wanted an avenue to pen down my thoughts and this is, after all, my own blog.
it has been a long time since I last felt that something important in my life is missing just because I had not been talking to a particular person for a few days.
signals are thus far a mixed bag on the scale, invoking warfare between the cynic and optimist in me.
the cynic thinks I am just giving myself false hope and just looking too much into a simple thing. he also reminded me I am at risk of becoming an irritant if I kept on disturbing her.
but the optimist refuses to be defeated since he is reminded of a few similar case studies regarding perseverance. he also told me isnt liking someone partly about how every small thing the other party does affects you as well?
now, that is an interesting revealation. I have to admit that every small action that the person makes does have an impact on me. I feel hurt when ignored, but that is clean forgotten when an effort is made, no matter how small, to respond. is this how it is supposed to be like?
I am at risk of sounding like a typical idol drama, but that had been something I had realised for a while.
indeed, I am feeling more pessimistic than optimistic about the situation now, but a part of me simply refuses to give up on this ray of hope.
this is a period of uncertainty. many things are going to change in the next few months. this only adds to the worries.
I think I miss someone.
P.S. perry signed in at the moment when I am done writing about the cynic and the optimist. his display name read "everything will work out". freaky coincidence?
